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Monday, May 6, 2013
Seeing is Believing
“This is happening for a reason.”I can still hear it as clearly today as I did
almost two years ago.
I was sitting alone in my car with a light
rain tapping against my windshield as a few simple tears slide down my
face.I had just left my surgeon’s
office for my lumpectomy post-op appointment. My husband Winston had
reluctantly left for a trip that he had put off because of my surgery with my
encouragement to “Go…I am fine.It’s
just a follow up appointment and remember Dr. Bowers told us he was quite sure
he got it all…so go, I am fine.”
That day sweet Dr. Bowers came into the exam
room and said, “Hey kiddo…how are you doing?”Before I could respond, he continued with, “Well, we have some bad
news.We did not get all the tumor…we
did not get clean margins after all…and I’m afraid we are going to have to go
back in.”I sat there really in
disbelief.I had been told I had Ductal
Carcinoma In Situ and that my cancerous tumor was contained within one of my
milk ducts…that I had been lucky because the tumor had not yet invaded my
breast tissue, therefore I would only need surgery followed by 32 rounds of
radiation and be spared the process of chemotherapy.Was the tumor worse
than initially thought?Has the tumor
spread?Am I going to lose my breasts
after all? Questions were swirling in my head.When one hears “you have a tumor that is cancerous that must come out”
it rings loudly in ones ears.
As my eyes whaled up, suddenly I wished I
was not alone.A numb tranquilized my
body.And then there was that still,
small voice that whispered into my spirit… “This is happening for a reason.”I was not alone after all.
My name is Lucy Barlow and this is my story.
What was the reason that this was all
happening?Why was I hearing that small,
still voice?Well, let me tell you the
rest of the story.
Following my two lumpectomies I began a
series of radiation therapy sessions…33 of them…every day of the week Monday
through Friday. I had to travel about 45 minutes each morningso I could get in and out and then get to my
office.On one particular day, the
radiation machine just did not want to “wake up”. This had happened a few times
before, so I generally had some devotionals, reading materials and other work
projects available to fill my time as I waited.
On one particular day, something seemed to
change for me.Suddenly as a watched
others in that quiet waiting room, I thought about the journey my friend Sharon
had traveled some years earlier.My
friend had gone through a horrific battle with cancer and chemotherapy and she
had many times shared with me her vision to develop support systems for others
going through treatment – a way to share pearls of wisdom to other women so the
journey through treatment could be smoother.She had these great ideas and I often said to her “You should really do
that and make it available to women worldwide."
And then…I was faced with a similar
situation.I will be the first to tell
you that I cannot say “I know how it is” to go through chemo; however, when you
hear cancerous tumor it will change the way you see yourself and life.I had an "a-ha" moment that morning
as I waited for the machines to "wake up" when as I sat then I saw a
small, frail lady appear to my right.She looked to be about 65 years old but moved as though she was 80.Apparently she had been dropped off by public
transportation, and the lonely little woman shuffled in, sat down, and remained
there silently as she laid her head in her hands as thought to say, “I just
don’t know how I can go on.”
I thought to myself that there must be a way
to help others proceed through this difficult and trying time in their
And then it happened.
As I sat watching the despair in the eyes of
that little frail lady, I suddenly knew why I was going through “this”.It was to join my friend Sharon in providing
a way to assist and comfort other women who are going through their treatment
processes.Everything she talked to me
about before took on a whole new meaning to me. I “caught” Sharon’s vision and
the passion that had lain dormant within her took on an immediate call-to-
action for me. Sharon and I were to become partners and form a company that is
designed to assist women who are beginning their chemo therapy process – to
help them travel the path of cancer treatment with more peace, organization,
and sense of a promising tomorrow.
The answer…I just had to be there and be
living it to see it!
Oh, and by the way, I have been cancer free
for two years…go pink!!